My Existence

So I gave my girlfriend a deadline on getting a job just about three months ago.  Yeah, I know right…finally!  Will be four years this June that we have been together, and she hasn’t held a job in that ENTIRE period.  No income, only expenditure.

 She calls me an asshole for pushing her to get a job, I don’t quite understand that response.  Isn’t having a job a good thing?  You make money, so you can spend it.  Pay your bills, support yourself through life without having to depend on others around you.  I think it is a good thing to support ones own self, not relying on others.  Be able to buy the things I want, when I want.

So it makes me wonder about these individuals who want to be a burden on others, dependant, a drain on society.  Why do they not understand the importance of an income?  Is it how they are raised by their parents?  Not taught the necessity and value of hard earned money?  The responsibility of keeping money, spending it wisely to live?

I live with a female who HAS worked in her life…but not at a serious job.  Most of the jobs she had were to buy the things she wants.  She has never had to worry about paying bills.  All was taken care of by her parents.  The house, the internet, the food, the transportation.  She never wanted in her life, only demanded things and I think her parents always gave them to her without question, without lessons.

So now I live with this person, who has had the past three months to get a job since I decided to stop punishing myself.  She has until my birthday to do such, which leaves her with 19 days left.  She thought I was joking the first two months, isn’t that pathetic?  You live with someone for almost four years and you can’t tell when they are being serious?  I explained to her what she needed to do, and that I would take no excuses.  None, period.  If she was without job by the end of my birth day, she would find herself without a place to live.  She would have to move out by the end of the month.

She has 19 days left.  I must say, I am getting excited about the prospect of being single again.  I feel my life would be a heck of a lot easier.  No one else to worry about, I don’t have to listen to someone nag me, I don’t have to take responsibility for anyone but myself.  It’s not even about being single so I can find another person, I think if her and I break up I am not going to get attached to another again.  No commitment sex?  Sure!  Live together?  Say “I love you?”  No.

 I just want to come home from my job and play video games.  That’s what makes me happy.