My Existence

Isn’t it fun being in a relationship that is going absolutely nowhere?  Deep down I have known it for a very long time, but I was hoping she would change if someone, namely me, helped her become a better person.  No more excuses, learning to do things for herself, actually standing up for herself instead of not.  Getting some self-confidence maybe, or some understanding of how to live a life.

At least, after these years she now has her license, finally.  And she is working to get a job, but she is still being lazy about it.  Sure, she has sent in applications and gone to interviews, but I don’t see her making phone calls, browsing online, maybe through a newspaper.  And it is always an excuse.

Hm, what a waste of a life.  My opinion, of course, but that is why this is here.  I know one fact:  If she didn’t have me, she wouldn’t be able to support herself by any means whatsoever.  So what exactly does that make her?  She doesn’t seem to understand, and no matter how often I try to show her - she always just makes an excuse, or argues, or just tells me to go away.  So amusing, humans.