My Existence

Tonight, available for download and not airing in the US yet, the last episode of Stargate SG-1 has been aired.  It has been a very long, VERY good ten seasons for this series…and I don’t want it to end!!

It’s not the same anymore without Jack O’Neill( two L’s ) but it’s still the best ever!  I am going to miss this show so damn much.  You think I am funny, or childish or immature for saying that right?  Ten years…I have been watching this show for ten years of my life.

I was 17 when it first aired.  I still didn’t have my license, I was still in high school stealing glances at Briana, or having long conversations with Nicolle at lunch, and Michelle and Kara were still trying to make me laugh by tickling me.  I was still sleeping my way through classes, owning everyone on Tetris that we played on linked TI-83’s and TI-86’s.  My dad hadn’t kicked out my second “mother,” and I was still a virgin.

I grew up watching this show, grew up already dreaming about living that kind of life someday, obviously knowing it was all fake, but wishing…silently wishing for it to be real.

I plan on watching the last episode tomorrow when I get back from work, and you know what….

I will probably end up crying.  But I admit that freely, I know who I am and I have no fear of being embarrassed at a perfectly natural emotional response.  It doesn’t matter if the stimuli is fictional, after all….what is love but a feeling that may be brought on by lies?