My Existence

I was filling my cats feeding bowl, when he came over and began eating a few of the pieces of cat food that fell from the bag. Lifting a handful of his food from the bag into my cupped hand, I waved it in front of his face to try and entice him from eating from my hand. At first he didn't, but as I held my hand there on the ground..I think he understood what I was waiting for and began eating from my hand.

Most people might worry about being bitten, but he is my cat, he is King. He would no sooner bite me than I would hurt him..and all I could think about was that it kinda tickled when his whiskers brushed my wrist, his nose coming into contact with my fingers as he nibbled up on the food.

But it made me smile, it made me feel happy. Quite happy in fact. I wish all my friends, and all the people in the world would understand that it is the simple things in life that make people happy!

A thank you from the helped, a smile for the kind, and a hug for the appreciated.

And, so starts another day.

I sit here at my computer, listening to the few songs I like..as I think about going to bed and what it entails.

Dreading the start of another day, another day in which my question goes unanswered, my mind goes uncalmed. Another day in which my heart may open to another soul, feel their pain and their love with life. I dont really want that, Im hurt enough with the pain of friends as they lean on me…use me as the Shoulder to cry on, the Ear that listens, the Hand to guide, the Heart to heal, or the Mind to solve. Im burdened enough already, but yet no matter how much pain I feel through and with them…I will always help one in need.

So now Im going to leave, do my pushups/situps..and crawl into bed, all for

Another day.

..and so I start an online journal, for a close friend of mine. Who has since deleted hers it would seem ::sighs:: Must talk with her and find out why before I give up on this as well. I’m already against it…I don’t like what I write in journals, I’m praying something will keep me from writing in here like I do in others..only time will tell.